Spirits Are Renewed

My spirits are renewed (well somewhat)! I chanted (the Buddhist form of praying) this morning about the house hunting and feel a little better. I also vented to my best friend, Tinesha, about all of the stuff going on in my life. It’s more than the house hunting that’s bothering me (I’ll vent about the other stuff at another time). However, I keep telling myself that we’ll find something. Today, I am going to go see 4 houses that have potential, but I am not getting my hopes up. Lately, I’ve been finding things online and then find out that they are sold already – which is a real bummer. My hubby and I are trying to keep our hopes low so we won’t be disappointed. I really want to find our house. I really do! The house project is beginning to feel like the wedding project – tiring and never-ending. Yes, I am being a bit dramatic but I do want this project to come to a successful close. I want to worry about other stuff like grad school and becoming a Buddhist leader but right now I just don’t have time. The house search is sucking up all of our free time. In Buddhism, we believe in showing actual proof – which is quite simply that our praying works and we are victorious. So, we are praying for our house and we have such a strong belief in our faith and abilities that we know we’ll find the house – and show actual proof. I just wish it would hurry up. Enough already!